I was sitting here thinking and I jotted down on the journal we got from Kaitlyn's oncologist that it was so absurd that she has cancer. It just doesn't seem real. I know of parents on the CaringBridge website who have seriously ill children and it is so real to read their stories. But with my child it is just not real at all. It just seem so, well ... absurd!
The tests and doctor visits are so exhausting. I still get the "what ifs" thoughts. It's hard not to. I wish I knew where the Lord was going with this.