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Sandy Hook

I made the mistake of looking at the faces behind the names of the Sandy Hook victims. Those sweet smiling faces :(

Our local newspaper printed the names and ages of everyone who died. I cut it out because I want to be praying for these families. Especially the parents of the children. How heart wrenching Christmas is going to be!

Precious Children

I love children. I love seeing their smiling faces and watching them play. It just breaks my heart that  20 babies(to me they were just babies) were murdered for no reason at all. The brave staff who died trying to protect those little ones :(

My heart is just broken and for this to happen so close to Christmas. For those families never mind December 21. Their world came to an end on December 14th 2012.

Random Ramblings

I had so many things I want to write about so I'm just going to put everything in one most likely rambling post.
Our family has gone through much this year. Our daughter Kaitlyn going through cancer which I still find it hard to believe but the scars from the surgery and radiation treatments are a constant reminder. We lost our dear Papa Richard Mummau who was an inspiration to all who knew him.  He was loved by  both plain and non plain people.
Financially it as been very hard but we still have a roof over our head. The Lord has been good to us and I know He is still there for us.

According to some people the world is coming to an end on December 21 2012. Now the way I see it, only God knows when the end of the world will happen. Also if the world truly is ending, shouldn't people be getting right with God and turn from their sin?  Shouldn't be God's judgement be on their minds?
As Christians we need to be in prayer and not stressing over what may or may not happen. T…

Food As Comfort??

My daughters and I  volunteer as  childcare care workers every couple of weeks at a church. We have the babies ages 6-12 months or so. Sometimes the babies are fussy so we give them Cheerios or these organic puff things made for babies. Many of the babies are fussy because they want their moms or are hungry. We give them Cheerios or whatever snacks their moms put in the diaper bags but are we sending wrong messages by giving them food when they are not hungry and we just want to console them? Maybe at this age we don't have to worry about them learning to use food as comfort? It's so hard to know because you don't want to withhold food from a baby. That's just mean.
It's almost 11:30pm and I'm tired and I can see a ramble coming on because I'm too tired to think what to write anymore. I can tell because I repeated myself but I'm too tired and  sleepy to delete my repetition.

Happy Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving to my sisters in Christ. Enjoy your time with your families. And do yourselves a favor.  Forget about the greedy stores that have the audacity to open on Thanksgiving for their pre- Black Friday sales. Spend that time with family instead.


We are so thankful  that Lord willing, we will be celebrating our daughter Kaitlyn's 12th birthday on Saturday. I confess that when she was diagnosed with cancer I was afraid she wouldn't be here for her birthday.
And Thanksgiving will be very special to us this year! We are thankful to the Lord for bringing us through and sparing our daughter.

Lift Every Voice and Sing

I remember singing this song in public school when I was about nine or ten years old.. It was special to me back then and now that I'm walking with the Lord the lyrics have a new meaning for me.  It was written by brothers James W and John R Johnson. The is from Hymntime/The Cyberhymnal.

Lift every voice and sing, till earth and Heaven ring,

Ring with the harmonies of liberty;

Let our rejoicing rise, high as the listening skies,

Let it resound loud as the rolling sea.

Sing a song full of the faith that the dark past has taught us,

Sing a song full of the hope that the present has brought us;

Facing the rising sun of our new day begun,

Let us march on till victory is won.

Stony the road we trod, bitter the chastening rod,

Felt in the days when hope unborn had died;

Yet with a steady beat, have not our weary feet,

Come to the place for which our fathers sighed?

We have come over a way that with tears has been watered,

We have come, t…

Singing in Church

I read an article in a recent issue of Calvary Messenger and the article was on the subject of singing at church. The title of the article is "Melody in Your Heart" by Timothy J. Meyers of Keysville,GA. The main point of the article was what is our focus when we are singing. Are we focusing on the music? Are we thinking about how good or not so good our singing is? Do we get irritated with singing the same songs? Do we get distracted while singing?

 I confess I sometimes get distracted during our singing time. I'll wonder if a song should be sung faster or slower. I get irritated if a song tune is changed from the original and I could go on.
After reading Timothy's article I really need to sing from my heart. Keeping my focus on the Lord and the words that I am singing. I believe this will bring honor to the Lord.

Spiritual Look Back

I've been thinking about my spiritual life from the time I got saved and where I'm at now. I saw a YouTube video of my former pastor at the church( Pentecostal) I was going to. He was a brilliant man of God. He's with the Lord now but I wish I had gotten to know him better. I was still very much a baby Christian when I was attending so I was very confused about doctrinal matters but I didn't ask my pastor any questions about anything that the church taught.

I eventually left that church because I had moved too far away and no one lived near my new apartment. The church I started attending (Foursquare) was very different from what I was used. It was a mostly white congregation and my old church was all black. I was also used to the pastor wearing a robe and this one did not. After attending for awhile  it seemed like a good fit. The pastor was great and was knowledgeable about the Bible. I left that church because I moved out 300 miles away and church was the hardest f…

Finally a Post

Well it's been a month now since I posted and I apologize. A lot has happened and some of the " a lot" has to do with my family on my mom's side. My siblings and I found out that we have living aunts and uncles that we didn't know existed.  A cousin found us through He found my mom who was his aunt.We don't know why our mom kept this a secret from us. It's very upsetting to say the least. Two of my sisters got to meet two of my aunts and their families. I wish I could have gone as they live in Los Angeles but gas is expensive and we just don't have the money right now. It was an emotional reunion my sisters were saying and apparently the aunts remember me as a very little girl and my little brother, Gerald who was given up for adoption but I don't know why.

 My aunts all look just like my mom. My mom passed in 2008 from cancer and I can't help but wonder how she would feel about us knowing and being in contact with her sisters. H…

God's Goodness

Sometimes I feel overwhelmed with God goodness to our family. Kaitlyn's last MRI showed the cancer is gone. Praise the Lord! Her health has been our number one concern.
I'm remembering a song I was listening to on Sunday as I was getting ready for church. The song is "God Will Take Care of You".  It's all about not being worried or dismayed. God will take care of us. I was deciding whether to tithe that Sunday because our finances have been so bad but I decided I was going to give God's His share. It's a scary thing because my husband still hasn't found a job and we spend very little if we do get money.

Please understand, I'm not saying it's okay to give money you don't have. If you don't have money in your bank account then it's is silly to write a "rubber" check.

Anyway, the girls needed something out of the car so when they opened the front door there were bags of groceries left by an unknown angel. She or he put an …

Gay Marriage and Chick-fil-a

Dan Cathy of Chick-fil-a  who is a born again Christian, caused an uproar recently when he said  he doesn't support same sex marriage.  So he doesn't support same sex marriage! Get over it! Just because someone believes that marriage should be between one man and one woman doesn't make that person a bigot!  We live in America and he is allowed to express his how he feels about the issue. After all he was asked and he told.  You may not agree with him and that is your right too. I have two dear friends whom I love dearly who are lesbians. I don't agree with their lifestyle and they are aware of that but I'm not a bigot and they don't consider me to be a bigot either.

It sounds to me like the gay rights activists want a "don't ask. don't tell" policy applied to anyone suspected of not supporting their lifestyle . Talk show hosts will be banned from asking their guests their position on the subject. Candidates will not be allowed to mention it. I…

More Thoughts on Headcoverings

I was thinking that probably more important than the style of coverings is how we behave while wearing our covering. Are we showing Christlike behavior in public and at home? Are we judgemental, have an "holier than thou" attitude towards Christian women who don't cover?
I hope I have never come across that way. I'm very quiet and shy so I hope that because of that people don't think I'm that way.

I have heard people say that some head covering Christian ladies have been the rudest and most judgemental women they have ever met. Ouch! I only know one woman like that and no amount of gentle rebuke will change her.  I can see why people would lump us all together and think we are part of a "clique"  whose members act like they are better than everyone else and excludes people who aren't exactly like them.

I would hope that people see a sweet spirit in us that points them to Christ. It's late so I think I'm heading to bed. Not to mention I …

Christian Women's Headcoverings

On a recent trip to Los Angeles I noticed a huge presence of Muslim women with their various types of coverings all of which clearly identified them as Muslim or were some of them actually Christian women?

The Bible in 1 Corinthians 11 doesn't give any size, color etc regarding type of coverings but I wonder if we Christian ladies are going to obey this scripture should our coverings convey that we are Christians and not Muslim?  This is just a question that's been on my mind lately. I've seen pictures of lovely Christian ladies who cover but their coverings indicate they might be mistaken for Muslim.
Please don't think I'm condemning any Christian woman who choses to wear those type of coverings. I'm just wondering if the Muslim type of coverings is ok for a Christian woman to wear. Those who choose to respond I'm looking forward to your answers.

Giving the Devil Too Much Credit?

This thought came to mind as a ponder these last few weeks of dealing with the cancer Kaitlyn was treated for. Several well meaning Christians have saod things like "Satan caused your daughter to have cancer" or " Somthing from your past was let in to cause your daughter's cancer" and things like that.
Are all illnesses from the enemy? I believe that the Lord allows some things that aren't pleasant to draw us closer to Him but I'm confused about this issue. I'm interested in what you readers have to say about this.
Remember comment moderation is on so hateful, mean spirited posts will be rejected.

More Thoughts

These last couple of months have been a whirlwind of doctors, treatments and the sometimes overwhelmess of God's love. He has taken care of us in so many ways and I often feel like I don't deserve His blessings. I guess in a way none of us do. He gave us His Son to die on the cross for our sin. We certainly don't deserve His love but because He loves us Christ died.

We have been  blessed in more ways than I can list here. Someone's been leaving groceries, personal care items, craft supplies, etc on on front step and we have no idea who it is or how many people are involved. I wish I knew who it is because I want to thank her or him or maybe them. I hope one day we will be able to bless a family the way we have been blessed.
Our fridge is dying and we are getting a new one through the Teddy Bear Cancer Foundation. We are so grateful for the Lord for taking care of us.

There are a couple of people at the Cancer Center whom we see everyday. One is a lady named Janet who …

A Variety of Topics

NOTE *I actually started this post several weeks ago but I just couldn't finish it. There are just too many emotions associated with this post.

Some of you may be wondering just who was "Papa" Richard Mummau? He was a wonderful Christian man. My husband and I met him in back in 2006 when he came to CA to visit some friends. He happened to be visiting the same people that we were going to meet for the first time. It was our first visit to a Conservative Mennonite church.

 Anyway, Papa Richard loved the Lord and he had a heart for the lost. He also was a wonderful encouragement to other Christians. His advice came right from scripture. When someone would say something contrary to what the Bible says, he would ask the person to show him in the Bible where it says whatever the person had said. This was not to be rude but to challenge the person to read the scripture to find out what it really says.
He enjoyed sending out free sermons on CD,free hanging veils etc and not once…

In Memory of Papa Richard Mummau

Richard Eby Mummau

December 6, 1936 - April 5, 2012

Richard Eby Mummau, 75, of Mount Joy, died unexpectedly of natural causes and went home to be with his Lord on Thursday April 5, 2012 at Lancaster General Hospital. Born in Lancaster he was the son of the late Reist R. and Mary Ruth (Eby) Mummau. He was the husband of Darlene (Gerlitzki) Mummau, and they would have celebrated 54 years of marriage on Thursday. Richard was self-employed in a Christian tape ministry. He was a member of the Rheems Mennonite Church. In his spare time Richard enjoyed lawn work, and was very delighted in his extended family.

Surviving in addition to his wife are three brothers, Ernest E. (Faye Hershey) Mummau of Quarryville, Reist E. (Sherry) Mummau of Wynnewood, OK, Lee E. (Joyce Hess) Mummau of Thailand; two sisters Virginia M. (Raymond) Siegrist of Brownfield, ME, Carolyn E. (Landon) Beachy of Kalona, Iowa, and a sister in-law Glenice Hoogestraat Mummau of St. Charles, MO.

Relatives and friends are re…

The Absurdity of It All

I was sitting here thinking and I jotted down on the journal we got from Kaitlyn's oncologist that it was so absurd that she has cancer. It just doesn't seem real. I know of parents on the CaringBridge website who have seriously ill children and it is so real to read their stories. But with my child it is just not real at all. It just seem so, well ... absurd!
The tests and doctor visits are so exhausting. I still get the "what ifs" thoughts. It's hard not to. I wish I knew where the Lord was going with this.

Wondering Why?

This post is going to be a ramble. My daughter Kaitlyn's tumor is malignant and I'm in total shock over this. She's just a little girl. I know there must be a reason the Lord is allowing this to happen. I can't even tell you what type of cancer she has because my mind blanked on that. All I remember from the phone call today was malignancy and pediatric oncologist.

My children are especially Kaitlyn are taking it well though she is not looking forward to more doctor visits and more surgery. She's an active child and she doesn't like being laid up.

Okay I started this post on Friday but I couldn't figure out what I wanted to say so here is Sunday. I'm still in a state of shock. I know that God has His hand on this situation.
I get Keepers at Home magazine a Christian ladies magazine and each issue has a letter from one of the publishers(Mary K Troyer) called  "Our House... to Yours".  The spring issue came yesterday and  what she shared was ex…

So The Waiting Begins

Waiting for the results of my child's biopsy has been very frustrating and everyone here is on edge. We find we have been snapping at each other and then asking each other forgiveness. Also asking the Lord for His forgiveness. Whatever God wants for us, Thy will be done.

Ponderings or I Couldn't Think of a Title for This Post

I have a lot on my mind these past few weeks. Whitney's Houston's passing affected from a mother's perspective. Cissy Houston has lost her precious baby and for me there is nothing like losing your child no matter how old they are. I lost two babies due to miscarriage and those babies were ever so preciuos to me and my husband.

Bobbie Kristine has lost her mama. I know that pain very well because I lost my mother February 10 2008 to breast cancer and there is not a day that goes by that I don't think about her. Right now I really wish my mama was here.  My youngest daughter who is 11 has a large tumor in her thigh which the doctors believe to be benign but she is having a surgical biopsy tomorrow just to make sure.
I don't know what scares me more, the biopsy or the results. She will be put under and I just dread the idea of them sticking IV's and such in my baby. She had an MRI and she had a hard time with them trying to put the contrast dye in her vein.
Even …

Christians Conforming to the World

This is a hard subject for me because I'm just as guilty of these as anyone else. The Bible tells us in Romans 12:2 "And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God"

And we need to teach this to our children too. If we parents are trying to act like the world, dress like the world, be involved in the world's entertainment, then we have no right to be upset when our children are not behaving in a godly way.

You just can't "Christianize" rock music, Halloween, witchcraft, etc. We must as Christians make every effort to "be ye separate"( 2 Corinthians 6:17) and not be as the world is. Now I'm not talking about physical separation but refusing to behave in ways that separate from God.  Things like drinking, fornication, club hopping etc.
  I must confess that  I once in awhile I'll be listening to secular songs on the radio…

What Will You Do With Jesus?

Jesus is standing in Pilate’s hall,

Friendless, forsaken, betrayed by all;

Hearken! what meaneth the sudden call?

What will you do with Jesus?


What will you do with Jesus?

Neutral you cannot be;

Some day your heart will be asking,

“What will He do with me?”

Jesus is standing on trial still,

You can be false to Him if you will,

You can be faithful through good or ill:

What will you do with Jesus?


Will you evade Him as Pilate tried?

Or will you choose Him, whate’er betide?

Vainly you struggle from Him to hide:

What will you do with Jesus?


Will you, like Peter, your Lord deny?

Or will you scorn from His foes to fly,

Daring for Jesus to live or die?

What will you do with Jesus?


“Jesus, I give Thee my heart today!

Jesus, I’ll follow Thee all the way,

Gladly obeying Thee!” will you say:

“This I will do with Jesus!”


Happy Sunday

I love Sundays and going to worship services. Today I missed church because I was in the church nursery. Being with the little ones is such a blessing to me.
I've been thinking a lot about my walk with the Lord. Doing a spiritual inventory of my life last year, I realized I made some mistakes that I don't want to repeat again this year.

Sometimes I think being a Christian is difficult at times. It is not easy at all standing up for what you believe and if a Christian voices their feelings about certain subjects that person is criticized. This is especially true if the Christian is a public figure.

Anyway, back to what I was writing about, I hold certain convictions that some Christians may not hold. I'm doing my best not to conform to the ideas of the world as Paul warns us about.
Unfortunately I know far too many Christians who have conformed to the world's ideas. More on this later.

Happy New Year!

Can you believe it really is 2012? Time sure does fly!
Well as usual I post some of  my goals for 2012 that Lord willing I will achieve this year. Here they are in no particular order:
Draw closer to the Lord by reflecting on what He has done in my life and the lives of my family members and by devoting more time to His word and prayer.Read the entire Bible in a year. This is over and above the assigned reading in the Beside the Still Waters devotion book and scheduled reading in 1 Corinthians  when Pastor starts the series at the end of January. There will be a study guide with lessons that correspond with what he will be preaching on the following Sunday.Read one account each week of a faithful martyr from The Martyrs Mirror. Reading these accounts makes me appreciate the freedoms I have to worship the Lord freely without persecution. The stories also encourage my heart even though many of the accounts are hard to read because of the graphic nature described  of their suffering.Get m…